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[29 Aug 2006|05:30pm] [ mood | cheerful ] Happy Belated Birthday Travis :) post comment

[29 Aug 2006|05:27pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] YEAH I GOT A NEW JOB :) post comment

[02 Aug 2006|09:16pm] [ mood | numb ] Well, not much has been happening as usual. Though I am always extremely busy - I don't understand. Anyways, we had a great week at VBS except for the power outage. So we lost one day due to that and then this Sunday we had carnival sunday and the rain destroyed that for us too. Depressing to put so much time and effort into something to have it not happen. I am going to see my best friend tomorrow from North Carolina. We are meeting in Ohio and hanging out for a couple of days. I can't wait to see her. So far that is about the only great thing other than I finally got paid after 3 weeks!! Tonight was a very heart wrenching night at church. We had an awesome service but I was told after the service that I am not going to be teaching my Sunday school class anymore. I am still going to be involved with them they are just spliting them up and I am doing the 10-12 grade girls now instead of all of the bus girls. Most of the girls in my class are in the 7-9 grade group so I am losing most of them. I know this is better in the long run but I am going to miss them. I cried. :( I know God is in it and this is what I have wanted but I wanted to do the 7-9 graders instead of the 10-12 graders. I won't be teaching anymore but on occasion due to the fact that I am planning on going on an extended missions trip. So I am just helping out and doing what I can. I get to go the races on Saturday night. That should be a lot of fun. I am really not looking forward to Sunday to tell the girls what is goign to happen. I already cried telling some of them tonight and I will again - of this I am sure. I was using my class as an excuse of why I couldn't go away for a year but now God has taken that away from me so we shall see what will happen. Your life never feels empty and meaningless if you get involved in God's work. Let go and let God, Corinna post comment

[14 Jul 2006|11:48pm] [ mood | optimistic ] AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY HAIR HAS TURNED REALLY REALLY GREEN!!!!!!!!!! post comment

[11 Jul 2006|01:49pm] [ mood | mellow ] Well, not much has been happening. I raised another 300 this weekend for my next trip to Haiti. I can't wait to go back! My car is not running so hot now. It is making some screachy noises in the front part of my car and when I put in into reverse. My adopted family from Knoxville is coming to visit me this weekend. I was sooo excited to hear the news. Can't wait to see them. Other than that life has been the same. I have some ball games to go to tonight. I hope we win. Hope all is going well for you guys. Corinna post comment

[30 Jun 2006|11:16pm] [ mood | chipper ] YEAH!!! I finally got my car back today. It runs 10 times better now than it did before it got wrecked. After driving a boat around for my loaner car I feel like I am driving a golf kart now. This weekend I am housesitting for my boss so I get paid to sit in a huge outdoor pool all weekend until wednesday. Life is rough I know. post comment

[27 Jun 2006|09:10am] [ mood | lethargic ] Yeah! Good news, my car is going to finally be fixed this week!! He said Friday at the latest. It only had close to $10,000 in damage to it and they still wouldnt total it. The more they worked on it the more damage they found. But oh well I can finally have a safe car to drive again. I haven't wrote in a while but I got to go to Fife Lake a week ago and see Julie. I also seen were Travis lived. It was soo good to see her again. I went to her house after the evening service for a bonfire and some singing. That was a lot of fun. I am hoping to go up again sometime this week to see Mrs. Anderson and Julie again before they leave. But I probably won't be able to due to the fact that i missed almost a full day of work yesterday because I had to go to court with one of the girls from my Sunday School class and VBS is in the morning so I would have to miss another full day of work. And I have a $500 deductible that I have to pay. So we shall see if I can or not. Anyways I have to go to Kalamazoo to take some guys to work and so I can work on a laptop down there so I must be off. Let go and let God post comment

I wrecked my car! [07 Jun 2006|09:33am] [ mood | blah ] I don't know if I will be going anywhere for a while now. I wrecked my car coming home from church Sunday night. It is pretty bad. I walked away from it fine. I just have had a constant headache since it happened. The mechanic said that there is $7000 in damage done to it. He said that there will probably be more when he really starts getting into it. My insurance is goign to go sky high now because I also got a ticket coming home from camp meetings up at Grace. And if wrecking my car wasn't enough I was riding 4-wheeler Monday and Dillon tried to ride up a hill that was straight up and I told him not to because we would flip. But he didn't listen to me and we did flip. So I got thrown off. I have been feeling marvelous the past couple of days. I'm sure you could imagine. post comment

PLEASE PRAY [20 May 2006|09:56pm] [ mood | anxious ] Hey everyone! I really need you to pray for me. There is a chance that I might be going to Thailand for a year on June 2nd. I am trying to raise enough money for a plane ticket but the biggest thing I need done is I need my car to sell. I put my car up for sale, my laptop, my ring, and just about everything I own in order to get enough money to go. I need at least $400 a month in support for the government to let me come and about $1200 for a plane ticket. I have most of my support I just need to sell my car and get enough for a plane ticket. I know that God can provide I just hope and pray that it is soon. If I am not able to go in June then I can go in November or January. But the sooner the better. Thanks for your prayers. Let go and let God, Corinna post comment

Thailand [05 May 2006|09:30am] [ mood | hopeful ] I might be getting to go to Thailand for a few months to work with Bro. Horn one of the missionaries that we support. They run an orphange of about 150 kids and are contantly having to turn kids away. They are in desperate need of help. Please pray that God would work things out for me to go. I don't know how much anything would cost or how soon I could go but I really want to do this if God allows me to. Here Am I Lord Send Me, Corinna Let go and let God post comment

Shocking [04 May 2006|01:32pm] [ mood | indescribable ] I just heard a statistic that I thought was very shocking and very sad. Of all the ordained ministers 94% of them preach to 9% of the world's population (english speaking)while the other 6% preach to the other 91%(non english speaking). My heart is very stirred. HERE AM I LORD SEND ME, Corinna post comment

Sabien [01 May 2006|10:16am] [ mood | ecstatic ] Hannah told me last night in church that Mrs. Anderson said that she doesn't see any reason as to why she can't adopt Sabien now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PRAISE THE LORD!! When she told me I shouted and was so excited I couldn't sing the rest of the service. I am so excited!!! post comment

[30 Apr 2006|11:16pm] [ mood | grateful ] This morning Pastor asked me to give my testimony in the evening service. Needless to say I was extremely nervous and sick all afternoon (literally). I don't like to get up in front of people especially a group of about 300. So all afternoon was spent in front of the computer trying to figure out what I was going to say. It wasn't like a normal give your testimony type. He wanted me to give mine right in the middle of his message as part of the message. It was a good thing I typed it all out because when I got up there I couldn't hardly think and of course thinking back on my life and how good God has been to my I cried as did half of the people in the audience. It went remarkably well after I stopped shaking and found my voice. Afterwards I went with some friends to DQ and then over to someones house to watch the DVD from the recital I went to up at Grace. I have include my testimony in this post just so I will always have it to remind me of how good God is and how unworthy I am. Even if noone else reads it it will be a big help to me to look at time and time again. Hello, my name is Corinna Johnson and I am a bus kid. That use to be a title I was embarrassed to have but now as I stand before you today I can say it with pride because I know that if it were not for the bus ministry at Beth Haven Baptist Church I would not be standing here. My parents divorced when I was 6 years old. The last memory I have of my parents being together is my Dad throwing my Mom up against the wall and chocking her. My Dad has been an alcoholic and a drug abuser for as long as I can remember. As kids he use to give us a beer when his friends would come over so we would shut up and stay out of his way as the smell of pot would drift through the house. My Dad remarried when I was in the sixth grade. I had a new family but was in a situation that I absolutely hated. I was being forced to raise two kids that I was not ready for. I became so depressed and even suicidal. I felt like I was all alone in this world. I hated school; I hated home; and I hated my life. The friends that I had at school started to drink, smoke, and party. I had seen the path that that kind of life will lead you down with my Dad and I knew that I didn’t want that same thing for me. A path so empty, so hopeless, and so full of hurt. I was searching for something more something better. My mom tried sending me to counselors for help but that didn’t work. I just knew that there had to be more to life than the life that I was living. I praise God for the day that Janet and George Nicholson came and knocked on my door and invited my family to ride the bus to church. Only God knew how much that invitation would change my life. The next Sunday the bus came but I didn’t go. My brothers went and came home and told me about how much fun they had and that I needed to go the next week. So the next week I rode to the bus to church. I just sat in my seat and didn’t say much but I saw that there was something different about these people something that I wanted to have. Jodie, I don’t know if I have ever told you how much it meant to me to have you come back and talk to me. You made me feel special; like you really cared about me and that I wasn’t just another bus kid. If it wasn’t for that couple of minutes you spent talking to me I don’t know if I would have ridden the bus again. The bus workers seemed to have something that this world didn’t have the thing that I had been searching for – joy, peace, love, and acceptance. I continued to ride the bus and the bus workers really reached out to me. So many times when it would come time to drop me off Heather would ask if I wanted to come to her house for the afternoon so I would quick run and ask my mom if it was ok to go. I loved those days of staying the afternoon with you guys. It made me feel important and accepted. You guys became my friends. George and Janet, and David and Rhonda, and Judy picked me up countless times to take me to church on Sunday nights, Wednesday nights, and for special meetings. I could tell that it wasn’t just a show for you guys but that you really cared about me and wanted what was best for me. God really began to work in my heart and changed the direction that my life was heading. I really wanted to go the Christian school. I cried in Pastor’s office a number of times asking him to talk to my parents about going to the Christian school. After a couple of years of praying I was put in a situation that I still don’t understand why it happened but God used it to work in my parents heart to allow me to go to the Christian school. Romans 8:28 is true that even in bad circumstance all things do work together for good. So half-way through my 10th grade year I was finally allowed to go to the Christian school. I went on to graduate from there and went to Crown College. I know I would not have gone there had the church not paid for me to go. Church, I am so thankful for all that you have invested into me and know that it was not in vain. I know that to whom much is given much is required and I don’t take that lightly. While attending Crown College I really began to doubt my salvation. While sitting in a Wednesday night service Bro. Scott Paulley was preaching and I became so convicted. That night I went forward to the altar and confessed my sins. I knew that I was a sinner and that Christ died on the cross to pay for my sins. I accepted what Jesus had done for me on the cross and asked Him to come into my heart. Since that day my life has never been the same. God has changed my desires and my heart. I have a desire to serve the Lord with my life. He has given me a burden for missions. What bigger and more rewarding mission field is there to be involved in than the bus ministry? I have completely surrendered my life over to Him. Whatever He wants me to do and wherever He wants me to go I am willing. Right now God has given me the opportunity to be involved in the bus ministry and to teach the teen bus girls Sunday school class. It is amazing to me that God would want to use me to make a difference in their lives – who am I? Each week as I sit in class and look at those girls I see so much potential in them. They are just looking for someone to care about them and spend time with them. I know how they feel and what they are going through because I have been there. And just like me all it takes is one person or a couple of people to take some time to invest in their lives. One day while waiting for a ride to church I came across this verse in I Samuel 12:24 it says “Only fear the Lord and serve him in truth with all your heart for consider how great things he hath done for you.” And as I look back on my life and see all the great things He has done for me and all that He has brought me through and saved me from how can I not serve Him. I am excited for what the Lord has already done in my life but am even more excited for what He is going to do with it. Bus captains, bus workers stay faithful because it is worth it all. To God be the glory! Let go and let God, Corinna post comment

[28 Apr 2006|10:17pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] I went golfing today for the first time this year with Michael and Eric. Boy did I suck big time. I was doing a lot better last summer so hopefully after a few more rounds I will get back into the swing of things. I did have a lot of fun despite my 65 score. Yeah - that is really bad. But I did good and only threw my clubs a couple of times and only ran over Eric one time with the kart (literally). He has skid marks on his arm and I just laughed and laughed. I really am not demented I promise. I got to talk to Nikki tonight and hopefully I will be going back up to Grace for Camp Meetings in a couple of weeks. I loved it up there and I am praying that God will work it out for me to go up there for college in the fall. Anyone want to buy a silver 03' Honda Civic???? I think my car is the only thing holding me back. Maybe I should pray for it to get paid off instead of being sold. Anyways we went out to Apple-bees and I am stuffed and ready to go to bed. I have had a cd stuck in my cd player since last Monday and Michael finally got it out for me tonight. Man I love him. I can only handle listening to the same cd for 1 time through. I was starting to go crazy! I have another long day tomorrow so I need to get to bed sometime. Let go and let God, Corinna post comment

Life is Great!!! [27 Apr 2006|09:37am] [ mood | cheerful ] On Sunday I had my Sunday school class over for an afternoon of grilling and games. It was soo much fun and exhausting at the same time. I had 11 girls come over. I can't believe how much food those girls ate. But we all really had a great time. I love my class. On Monday night John Jenkins preached at our church. That was awesome. I love to hear some good preaching. Kristina (one of the girls from my class) came over Monday night and stayed the night. We stayed up way too late for having to get up at 4:30am to go up to Grace. We had a lot of fun talking though. I ended up giving her half of my closet to take home with her. She is really trying to what is right and that is very encouraging to me. That I could have a part in making a difference in somebody elses life is amazing to me because who am I? We went to Grace Baptist College on Tuesday. That was the best college I have ever seen. We got up there around 8am and stayed until 9:30pm. It was absolutely awesome. I was able to meet so many people. The classes were great and so was the preaching. I got to hear my friend Nikki Stevens sing her first solo ever. She sounded like an angel (seriously). She did sooooo good. I am praying about possible going up there. I filled out my application last night so we shall see. Kristina really liked it too. We are all praying that she will decide to go to a Bible college instead of a secular college. While up there I also went to see Bobbi VanDussen and got some more pictures of the Haiti trip. They were soo good it made me cry. I also went to Traverse City to see Matt, Travis, and Trevor. I still don't understand why they couldn't have waited in Fife Lake for another 15 minutes so I could have seen them there instead of having to drive all the way to Traverse to see them for a half hour but oh well. It is done and over with. They showed us around the mall and how Travis and Trevor dominate in Dance Revolution. I was very impressed with how good they were at it. It was good to see them again. We made it back to the college 10 minutes late but we didn't miss Nikki. Kristina and I played Mario Kart, fuse-ball, and ping pong after the recital. It was soo much fun. I just loved being there and the people were great. If God works it out to where I can go to college again I am going to go. I finally got home around 12:45 that night. I fell asleep a couple of times so I don't know how I made it home. I remember one time waking up in somebody elses drive way in Edmore and not knowing how I got there. All I can say is God was with me and kept me safe. Anyways God is good and life is great. Let go and let God, Corinna P.S. Just b/c I came to Traverse doesn't excuse you guys from coming down here sometime. Remember you promised and no matter how busy you are at being lazy I will still hold you to that promise. I want some cappuccino and some pictures. post comment

[18 Apr 2006|03:52pm] [ mood | mellow ] Well, not much has happened since the last time I wrote as usual. I have been pretty much just working. I have gotten to hang out with some of my bus girls which has been really fun. Last Tuesday I was asked to speak at the widow's meeting about my trip to Haiti. It was a lot of fun. Them old women are hilarious. I didn't have pictures of the babies or where I stayed to show them anything but I showed them some of Kori's and John's pictures. Everything went really well. I wasn't too nervous which is really good for me. On Sunday I had 16 girls in my Sunday school class. That is the most that I ever had. It was awesome. We had so much fun that day. I made 12 Easter baskets thinking that I would have enough but boy was I wrong. Everything worked out though. I also had $60 stolen from my wallet while we were in the kitchen baking at church. I don't want to accuse anyone but I am almost positive it is one of the girls in my class. Stuff happens though, You have to roll with the punches. I don't think any less or different of them I just wish they would have told me that they needed something instead. I would do anything for those girls that I could. I took 3 of them out with me on Saturday to go do some visits and get the stuff for class the next day and my car died on me. It was a lot of fun!! We had to run and find someone to jump it for me. Finally we found somebody and then I took them home. It wouldn't start again on Sunday morning so I had to use my Dad's truck to get to the bus on time in the morning. Yesterday I went and got a new battery for it so hopefully everything will be ok now. It is only an '03 so it should be fine. I found out that a guy who I have never met from Pennsylvania is praying about "dating" me. That was kinda weird to find out. He even called me last night for the first time. Needless to say I didn't know what to say. It is kinda cool and really strange at the same time. Oh, well only time can tell. Anyways I have to babysit tonight. I am still waiting to hear from you and have that cappuccino and bagel that you owe me. Hope everything is going well with you guys. Someday my Prince will come, Corinna Let go and let God. post comment

[09 Apr 2006|08:16pm] [ mood | thirsty ] I am still waiting for that cappuccino!! :) post comment

[09 Apr 2006|07:59pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] Today we had another awesome day of services. It was funny hat Sunday on the buses so it was fun to look stupid all morning even though I was one of the few bus workers to wear a funny hat. I babysat yesterday and we went skateboarding for a while and played Candy Land. Lots of fun as always. Tonight in church one of my best friends came down from Grace!! I was so excited to see her as well as two girls from my Sunday school class in church. Great things are starting to happen in there and I am so excited. The first and second graders did a play on being a missionary. It was sooo good. I was extremely convicted and that was before the preaching even started. It is amazing to me that God would want to use someone like me to make a difference in this world. A very humbling thought. I just got back in from taking a bike ride and all I thought about is Haiti the whole time I was riding. That is all that I have been thinking about since I got back. I am probably driving people crazy because it is all that I talk about. It really opened my eyes up to the lost world out there. I can't go because of their need though I need to go because of the Love of Christ that constrains us or else it is all in vain. I need to start making a difference here in my home town before I can go and make a difference somewhere else. Lots of thoughts are running through my head. I really wish I had someone here that I could talk to but since I don't I just write it out and hope it makes sense somewhere down the line. I am going back to Haiti hopefully in June and when I get back from there I will be moving into a place of my own!! I already have it all lined up and everything. I would move in sooner but I need to save money for Haiti so I told them when I get back. I can't believe that I will have a place all to myself. It is not a house but a trailer. But who really cares I can have my own space and life again!!!!!!!! I can't wait. Wishing my Mario would come, Corinna post comment

Travis and Matt do they still exist????? [07 Apr 2006|10:09pm] [ mood | curious ] This is sooo weird. I have not been home this early on a Friday night in who knows how long. I have no life! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I babysat when I got off of work tonight. We went bowling and it is really hard for me to say this but .... ok here it goes.... I got beat by a nine year old. Bumper bowling sure makes a huge difference but none the less she beat me by one point. I bowled pathetic anyway (97) but it was lots of fun. I did redeem myself the second game and actually won. I thought it was bad enough to loose bowling to a nine year old but when we got home a 4 year old beat me in UNO. Not once but twice. How much more of a loser could you be. But despite all those traumatic events of the day I did put my resume in at a place and they already want me to come in for an interview. It sounds pretty promising. Starts off at $12/hr. The only bad thing is that I would have to be to work at 7am which means I would have to leave my house between 5:45 and 6:00. I would be done though at 3:30 instead of 5:15. So all in all it works out. Travis and Matt I really miss you guys and wish you would get in touch with me. I am beginning to wonder if you are 1) dead 2) extremely ill or 3) just completely avoiding me? Wishing my Mario would come, Corinna post comment

[06 Apr 2006|10:28pm] [ mood | weird and hyper ] Well, I thought my night had ended the last time I wrote but I ended up going over to my Dad's house for the first official bon-fire of the year! Yeah, I love the smell of smoke and making smores. I showed everyone the pics that I have of Haiti. My Dad loved it. He said that if he had enough money he would love to bring Wendy over here. Just dawning on me -- Maybe through missions I can get my family saved. It would be a strange way for God to work but God can do anything. Something really weird happened tonight while I was over there. My ex-stepbrother showed up ( my dad remarried to his mom and now they are not together anymore). I have not seen him probably since we graduated. We didn't get along then and he still weirds me out now. But I just thought it was weird that he would show up over there. Some people just never change. Anyways that's all for now. Time to go read until I fall asleep which will probably only be like 10 minutes but it still counts. Wishing my Mario would come, Corinna P.S. Still waiting for that cappuccino and bagel!!! post comment

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